As far as my sensibility, my dexterity and my existence are concerned, I am no longer eluding my real thoughts about the obscene obscurity that reveals its wide influence in the world of ambiguity and catastrophe. Even right now, the obsolete principles, analysis and evaluations of highly respected scholars, philosophers, educators, scientists and inventors are still in its pandemonium. From the vast aspiration of answering all queer phenomena that are confronting the rationality and in dependency of every individual to the more vague rigorous pursuit of truth, a new knowledge with its universality is now agitating to release its pandemic reaction to the lives of every agent. Because of its alluding investigations and discoveries of new answers for the questions that challenge existence, it excites and arouses the interest of the mass to scout further with adept concept of proper management of a new method, which is thinking.
To support my ideas and aspirations about the endeavor of every rational being to ferret the real reasons behind existence, I am going to share my personal experience regarding this matter. Controversial as it is, as the existence of god was still very debatable even now in the industrialization Era, I made a glimpsed from my past, when I was questioning god’s existence in the world of the Absolute. On that time, I do not know what to do then; I was bewildered of all sides of culture and tradition of my ancestors’ demonstrative effect about the dwelling of the almighty creator in every aspect of uniqueness of body and soul and the printed materials that comprises the good teachings of god, which symbolizes his existence and being. Because of this, I became savage and had an eager determination to strive for the truth and accumulate more information to correct the fallacy in my mind, but I failed to provide a sound judgments and vigor answers. Nevertheless, in my aspiration to prove his non-existence, I realized that my family was turning outrageous with me. I felt that I betrayed my family, my own life and my creator, however, as time went by, I found my self becoming an atheist despite of the fact that I was afraid to contradict the traditional faith that god is just everywhere. Although I am a Christian, I cannot help myself to question his being. Actually, it was not my intention to establish an imeldific approach, but then, my eagerness to prove also my existence provoked me to do so. I though if I ever had the answer to my never-ending questions and proof to my skepticism, I become more human.
Now, in my attempt for the veracity of subsistence, I am now again in my Christian faith and trust. I found out in my investigation that proving something is not as fundamental as it is implied. No matter how you give much emphasis on something, the uniqueness of every philosophy and principle of each one of us will always ascent contradiction. In such circumstances, I found that thinking itself could not provide ultimate answers to my inquiring mind; instead, it pursues new range of understanding of new ideas that suggest its ultimate uniqueness. Therefore, it does not answer any inquiries of man in a way that he needs it but provide speculation and idea that is subject to censure and vigor.
As ever uttered by a respectful philosopher, Emmanuel Khant, one time in his lecture class, “You will never learn philosophy from me, but how to philosophize, not thoughts to repeat, but how to think, think for yourselves, inquire for yourselves, stand your own feet, dare to think,…..just dare to think.” From this powerful statement, I was mesmerized the way Khant approached the science. In this manner, I considered him as a paragon that created a catalyst of change to chase the ultimate use of instinct rather than dependency.
From the turmoil of rationality to the more simple participation of sanity, I am now reflecting my ego to provide me a sojourn in the veracity of the material world. Through this, I will no longer be eluding my real identity from the world of censures and bluffness. I am now sure that everything has its own value and indispensability that needs reflection instead of being questioned.
